Catharsis is the thing that makes everything worthwhile.

Archive for July, 2010


I’ve been having sleep disorders, sometimes I toss and turn in bed thoroughly exhausted yet unable to sleep and sometime I just keep waiting till I finally fall asleep in the morning but I’ve never been able to remember my dreams, beyond an occasional very short lived vague recollection. I was always curious about them, feeling that I was somehow missing out on some secret knowledge.

However, I started to take the advice from a doctor, using a 3 stage medicine patch. After about a week of remarkable lucid dreams, I checked the patch doc and discovered lucid dreams were a common side effect. After completion of the medicine treatment I returned to my prior non-remembrance of dreams, with no particular interest in them. They turned out to be pretty dull, which might explain why I don’t remember them.

So this is what got me interested for, the movie – Inception, Dom Cobb (Leonardo DiCaprio) and his compatriots use drugs and psychological profiles to trigger specific dreams in people. I can’t help but wonder if it is true that despite the heavy sedation and level of detail incited are far-fetched, dream control isn’t entirely a Hollywood fantasy?

Would be a fact that in the future we are able to control what happens in our dreams and we can change them if we don’t like the way they are going. People all have the ability of manipulate the dream world like sometimes I was flying in my dreams with feather-like quivering blades and in doing this I could fly with sort of seraph-like wings or I could be able to stop while I was having a falling dream.

Nevertheless a refined quality of sleep is all that matters therefore no matter what kind of dreams I have I don’t want to wake up in the middle of them with self awareness and bring dramatic changes to life.


I can’t remember ever not knowing…

時常回想起念大學那一段每天『沉溺』在英美語文學報告的日子; 我用的是『溺』,因為那真的就如掉進海裡載浮載沉般好痛恨沒天沒夜地念那些這輩子可能不太會有機會用到的詩歌和檢討不會有人在乎的戲劇評論。但是輾轉過了這麼多年,我很慶幸沒有放棄掉閱讀和筆記的習慣,而且發現文學還是我的最愛,如果能當飯吃就更好了…

In order to arrive at what you are not,
You must go through the way in which you are not.
And what you do not know is the only thing you know,
And what you own is what you do not own,
And where you are is where you are not.

East Coker, Four Quartets, by T.S. Eliot


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